SHE WAS THERE SINGING

SHE WAS THERE, SINGING

She was there, big bright smile, bright blue eyes, big bright voice.
She was there with a billion people thinking the same as I
"oh god... she is beatiful"
But maybe not with the same strength as I, just a quiet thought with echoes
"She is the one"

I had spent the whole afternoon drinking but when saw her standing up there, my mind went crazy and the wine dissapeared from my veins

I had saw her about 10 minutes ago and i knew i had to talk to her, but i was a Nobody rounded by nobodys I had no excuse to talk to her But she started singing "Hell fucking yeah!!" shouted my tiny inside-ME

Nothing could distract me (even that guy talking about her like a dickhead with dickthoughts and dickmouth) I looked at her and the whole place started to move



Have you seen those movies when there is nothing but her? nothing but her eyes in a crowded place?




Suddenly i realiced that that guy was still talking to me (oh so youre a lessbian? nice to know!! but you know... she is mine, im a real spanish man and they love us...) "fuck off... go fuck your self im triying to listen!!!" I wish i would have said so but im too polite to be sincere


After the first song, no no no, in fact, after her third word my skin went cold and then went hot and then... i was high!! I could not stop staring at her... I used to be shy, I used to feel uncomfortable when a siger stares at me... you know? but...

But suddenly she looked at me, my ear got red and came on fire ( it only happens when i have no control of myself) And my knees trembled I was having my own personal earthquake

"Is she smileing at me????"
"JODER!!!!! "

I had to hide, i turned back and hug one friend of mine "Valeria!!!! me muero de vergüenza! ke me he enamorado!!" I thought i was joking...not so... not so
"She doesnt know me, but you do" she sang and i told my self "oh lady i wish you let me know you... "i could give you so much spotlight believe me" Im 20 but i felt like a 13 year old girl

She finished her concert and i felt in despair "I HAVE TO FIND HER!" i tryed to wait a few minutes... She was talking in the backstage with some people
I tryed to drink but i didnt really need it, i tryed to smoke but i could not roll my cigar... my hands were trembling
... like my knees

earthquakeeee

I found her sitting next to my friends, i told them i had felt in love of her (I THOUGH I WAS JOKING!... not so) and they said more dickhead stuff... MEN! I waited and waited, minutes looked like days! I foud some other friends... but i could not wait more

There is a very spanish phrase "Échale huevos" means "Be brave" in a rude way "Use your balls"

Well I did it even with out "balls"

"you`ve got the beautifulest voice ive ever listened" I really felt so stupid, everybody must tell you that, i felt really topic... but i didnt care at all, i was telling the truth
"oh thanks"


Started speaking with your friends and every time you looked at me i felt even more stupid but happy "Shit!!! i wish i was a man... or not? would she? but that song... aaaaaaaaaaarg... BULSHIT!!!"

One cigar
Want wine?
an other (so fucking nervous)
one for Maria
an other for you
wine for me
She is fucking beautiful, so damned pretty
i need some valium
im having some litlle heart attaks
cigar
cigar for Maria
cigar for you
my friends came
her eyes...

Then you all went home
I satyed and tryed not to think about it, i was going crazy I hated myself because of being a little child, because of being so topic. Wy do I allways behave this way!!!???

My friends band played, i dislocate my shoulder, one friend put my shoulde in the right place.


I woke up this morning, shit.. i had a dream about you
cigar
cigar
cigar
myspace... Spotlights
spotlights
spotlights
hear me now
i have to see her again

http://www.myspace.com/fridaekerlund

But today i have to go to work...